So I just wanted to do a little update on my life cause I haven’t done that in a while and there is some stuff happening right now. I also wanted to talk about the first appointment of the second round of therapy which was (shocker!) two weeks ago.
Alright. Where do I start.
As you might know, I recently started seeing my psychotherapist again. And I still think it was the right thing to go back for another cycle of therapy. But it’s still hard to talk about all the stuff that’s going on inside me. All the symptoms. Everything that’s going on. I mean…I’ve been in and out of therapists’ offices for 6 years now and I still get terrified before every single session. Anyway…so I went back two weeks ago and it went pretty good, I think. I did not cry talking about all the important stuff like…uhm…my eating disorder and the self-harming…which I thought was pretty amazing considering the fact that I felt like crying the whole time. We then spoke about the diagnosis I got from my psychiatrist and my medication. My medical history. It was like a new start. Which I thought was good. There’s just too much stuff from the past that’s haunting me in the ‘now’…I really don’t want to dwell on the last therapy sessions.
Nothing big happened. It was just a lot of talking and a lot of explaining and some bureaucracy (filling out forms and stuff).
Aside from that, I recently saw an ad that some guy was looking for a dog walker. It looked legit (address, phone number, email-address, pictures), so I wrote an email. I didn’t get anything back yet, but I’d really love to earn some extra money. I mean…4 bucks an hour for taking the dog for a walk two times a day? Yes, please.
I also found an ad that a guy or girl (no idea) was looking for someone to ride their horse two times a week. I thought ‘why not’, so I took the little piece of paper with the phone number home. Problem is: I am TERRIFIED of phoning. 😦 I hate this feeling when I push the numbers and I have to hang up even before the first ring. I mean… I’m almost twenty freaking years old. -.-
ALSO: I started studying again! Like…really studying. That’s good, right? And I cleaned my desk. Which makes it a lot easier, too.
I think that is it for now.
PS: The title is referring to lyrics to a song by MCR.