I’ve been dealing with some stuff.
You might have already noticed that because I only just now began posting quotes again. It’s simply really, really hard to do things, live a life, when you’re in pain most of the day.
But it’s not just the pain. I think I could actually deal with it. But nobody knows what’s wrong. I’ve been in pain for months now and I’ve gone from specialist to specialist and so far all of the tests have come back showing absolutely nothing. And that’s the worst part. Not knowing what’s going on.
For a while we thought it was because of my vitamin deficiencies, but that turned out to be a bust because I’ve been taking vitamins, my levels are normal now and the problems are still there. It freaks me out. Terrifies me.
Shit just keeps on coming. Whenever I’m taking a deep breath because I’m realizing that I’m momentarily pain-free, another thing pops up. It’s tiring. Utterly exhausting.
So, you know. We’ve gone from hard times to harder times.
But I try to keep on breathing. I’m currently participating in my own private NaNo, so that’s a good thing, I guess.
Anyways…I’m off to try and find something to eat.